We are born, we die. We win, we lose. We are empty, we are full. The sun comes up, the sun sets. There is nothing new under the sun. Yet another saying that takes time to realize the profoundness of it's words.
So yeah, I exist in that world. That is to say, this world. I think I strive to be different in so many ways but it's like a rubber band or gravity - the further I get away from it the harder it pulls me back. But I'm learning acceptance of myself. It's been the hardest thing to do since I can mostly accept the rest of the world as it is. I believe it comes from a sense of control. I can't control the rest of the world and therefore I accept it as it is - the same as people. But for myself? I believe that I am in control of my body, my self, my life. It's hard to not believe it but life is what it is. It's hard to go against, "there is nothing new under the sun" unless of course you are not under the sun. I can see why some people want to leave this planet and yearn to go where no man(person) has gone before.
As I've gotten older, mortality comes to mind more often. I accept it although I don't like it. Nothing new there - it's something that has always been with humans. Getting older itself? I'm growing to accept it but also don't like it either. But enough talk of philosophy.